Hurry up & wait....

Just when you think "Finally! Some answers!" Reality somehow creeps back in and BAM, more waiting...So I went to my LEEP procedure to remove the cells from my cervix and uterus...Painful procedure by the way....definitely don't want to do That again! But thankfully the Doctor I was seeing was very personable. She obviously was concerned with the fact that I have absolutely no pain threshold, so I explained to her what was going on with my body and showed her the lovely growth on the back of my throat. I didn't think much about it until the next morning, when the Doctor called me herself! Now, you may know, Doctors never call patients. Ever. They always relay a message thru their secretaries or medical assistance and they call you and usually only explain half of what you needed to know. Anyhoo, She called and said she had been up all night searching online, reading my file and trying to sort all of it out. 3 hours later, she had an appointment scheduled for me with a specialist....the same office that my pcp couldn't get me into for another few weeks...hmmmm...I was so overwhelmed with her kindness and concern, I cried.
In anticipation for the upcoming appointment, I researched all the things I thought he would probably say it was. I assumed he would look in my ear and my throat and know exactly what we were dealing with, set up some tests, and then I'd start treatment....Boy was I wrong. Not only did the specialist spend more time ying to figure out the computer system, he didn't know what the growth was, cultured it yet again (this will be my 4th culture), told me to go home and debris it by using this special nasal spray that it corrosive enough to hopefully strip some of the growth away, and then he would see me back in a week. He assumes that by me "washing the growth away", I should be somewhat better when I see him on tuesday. And if not, then he would have proceed with a surgical debridement.... without knowing exactly what it is yet....3 of the 4 people I have seen so far that have looked at this lovely growth, seem to think the same cancer cells that are invading my cervix & uterus, are also the ones to blame for my throat. He on the other hand, says that I am too young for that to be the case....Too young?!? Babies are born with cancer for christ sake! He then said it could be an infection, now mind you, I've had this since May of 2011 and have been on numerous rounds of steroids, antibiotics, antivirals and anti fungals and nothing as worked, and if it was an infection of some kind, I would think my husband, who I kiss on a regular basis, would have some sort of infection as well....
Oh well. I guess I'll just have to wait and see. The pain of this is getting to be unbearable, so at this point, I just want him to admit me, cut it out and be done. But he says it;s going to be a long and painful process....YIPEE! I've been dealing with it for almost a year, so whats another one, right?!